I went to lunch with my friend Dawn today. We had a great meal and always great conversation. I had a half turkey sandwich and a bowl of veggie soup. And then had some delicious chips!! This restaurant is known for their Banana Pudding. I have had it several times. Now this is not your ordinary B.Pudding. This is B.P. straight from the heavens. It really is not pudding at all. It's more of a thick cream cheesy, custard with chunks of bananas and vanilla wafers and to top it off it is served on a crispy sugary tortillia shell!! Can you say YUM!!! Anyway they were out of it by the time we asked. Now earlier in the lunch there was a 4top across from us and they ordered a coconut cake. They ordered two pieces I am assuming with the intention of each person getting half a piece... I had my back to the server as she is bringing the two plates out but Dawn did see. Dawn was in shock and quickly pointed out to me the size of each piece of cake.... I turned my head just in time to see the expression of each of the faces at the 4top as they also saw what was in store for them. I am not exaggerating one bit here ok.. Each piece was like a quarter of a cake. So a full size round cake is cut into fours and that is how they are served??? I was like "Wholy crap are you serious???" and the people of course were just as shocked. I thought about bringing my camera with me today and told myself I did not need to... Well I wish I would have so you can see just how large a piece of cake is here... So of course we ordered 1 and split it. I thought it was pretty good but could not finish all as the frosting got a bit sweet for me. But the cake itself was very good.. Ok I know we are responsible for what goes in our mouths but can we just stop and think for a minute.. Why in the world would any restaurant serve you a piece of cake that size?? I know now where to go if I am having a dinner party and need dessert.. It will feed that many..

It's been a week and I must say that I have had good days and bad days. Eric bought me chocolates yesterday for V-day which did not help at all.. What's so bad is that they were not even very good but did I eat them?? You bet your arse I did....

The Biggest Loser.

So I am watching the show tonight. I love this show. It's so awesome to see people change their lives the way they do. But here is my question... What is it about watching that show that makes me want to eat??? I mean snack on anything and everything.. Everytime I watch it I inevitably get up and grab a snack. I do good all day and as soon as I start watching the show I am instantly snack attacking????? WTH?? So yes I am one of those people who watch Biggest Loser while eating ice-cream or whatever strikes my fancy.... Can you say IRONIC....

Monday...

Yesterday I was in the car most of the day driving back and forth, back and forth between basically two places.... So I did great with the eating but did not get any exercise in. Except my right foot might just be a bit slimmer today then before... ;)

As far as the weekend goes I did not do to bad on my eating. Saturday night Eric and I went to a comedy show where you bring your own food and drink. It was for the American Heart Association and we go every year. I had the Zaxby's Blue Zalad and then about 3 glasses of wine. I did not eat all of the salad and had none of the bread they always give with it. I dont get the bread thing at all??? But of course later in the night at the table there were some Ruffles out and I nibbled on just a few of those. Sunday which is today I had Cheerios for breakfast again and spaghetti for dinner. I worked in the yard for a few hours so got my exercise in. I had only 1 serving of spag and not a big one at that and I have drank several glasses of water. I do have to admit that my son bought some Ruffles and I had just a few of those... Chips are my downfall. But I put a few in a small bowl instead of taking the bag.. We all know what happens when you eat out of the bag right??? :)

Gardening for exercise!

I just spent 2 hrs outside digging out some beds. I know its not traditional exercise but it works for me. I think I like going to the gym but in reality I would much rather be outside playing volleyball or hiking or whatever then be in a gym.. I am not done with the beds yet so I will be back out there after taking a break for my back. It feels great to get outside and do physical work, it really does. :)

My breakfast. Well considering I ate it at noon I would have to say my lunch. :)

Starting over yet again.

I AM FAT... Yes that ugly three letter word that makes people cringe. I have been fat for 17 years and I am so over it... I am D.O.N.E.

Let me tell you a little about me. I have been married for almost 17 yrs, I have 5 children and a 12 yr old St.Bernard. The 3 oldest kids are grown and we have a 15 and 12 yr old still at home. I am 42 years old so if you calculate the numbers I have been fat since I was 25. Before that I never had a weight problem. I had 3 kids and always returned to my normal weight shortly after each birth. Then I met my wonderful husband and we had two more children. I was never able to lose the weight from the last two pregnancies. Well ok "I was never able to" is a lie. Everyone is *able* it just takes work. So the first 25 yrs of my life I never had to diet, exercise etc. It was never a problem. I averaged 130 to 140 pds. A size 10 to 12 and I was very happy with that. I did not nor do want to be a twig. Well now I am about 90 pds heavier and only a few sizes larger... You know just a few. ;)

I think about my weight EVERY day. (I know this is something we women especially do, we beat ourselves up regularly because we don't look the way we want to.) But do I do anything about it? Sometimes.. I have done weight watchers (for 1 week) slimfast, detoxing, sparkpeople, and numerous other things that are supposed to help. Do these things work? Sure they do, if you do them. That's the trick right, you have to actually do them. I have joined gyms and paid out the arse and start out going and loving it and then always end up finding a reason to not go. I have walked regularly with friends but that always stopped after awhile. I always think if I have someone to do it with then I will. If someone else is relying on me then I will get there. So why can I not rely on myself???

I am not a sick person, I do not have high blood pressure, my cholesterol is great but I have been having back issues the past few months and that is just one more reason I need to stop this and get healthy. I feel like the weight is finally starting to affect me in a physical way.

So the purpose of this blog is to get my thoughts out there, to hold myself accountable for my actions. I am not a writer so if you decide to follow this blog don't expect great writings. It will basically be just like us having a conversation. :)